| Yes, I am legally blind. I see about a tenth of what most people see. I was born with cataracts. They were removed many times before I was two years old. I have had about a dozen eye surgeries. I have always seen about the same as I do now, though I do think it may be getting slightly worse with age.
It is hard to describe how my vision is because it is constantly changing. I can see much more if the light is coming from behind me than if it is in my face. I can see better if the contrast is very diastinct. I have never quite understood if my vision would be blurry to you if you suddenly saw the world through my eyes. I think it would be though. I have talked with people who have experienced going blind over a few years and they say it is like looking through wax paper.
I have only recently realized, in the past few years, that I cannot distinguish what I am seeing with my physical eyes and what I am seeing with my psychic eyes. I just know that sometimes what I think I see isn’t there when I reach for it, and sometimes I think I see a person a certain way and it isn’t even close to what they physically look like… yet as I get to know that person I discover that I saw them as they presented themselves on another plain. Here’s an example of that: Forrist, my husband, told me I would be meeting a man later on in the day, and all I knew was that he was a healer of some kind, I had no other information at all. Awhile later the man was there and I shook his hand, and he spoke to me. I heard him speak with an Indian accent… Dot not feather kind of Indian…. And he had a turban on and his skin was very dark, his energy was soft and sweet and I instantly wanted to be near him and ask him deep spiritual questions. I took all of this in without much thought… I usually get streams of information whenever I hear a voice on the phone or touch someone etc. Forrist and I walked out to the car to go on to lunch with plans to return later. Forrist asked me what I thought about the healer. I told him my impressions only I didn’t describe him physically since I knew Forrist could see him just fine. We ate lunch and Forrist asked me again what I thought of this man… I almost became impatient as to why Forrist would ask me about this man again… then I said something about his skin being very dark… and Forrist was puzzled and said, “but his skin is very pale… white” I argued with him and said of course it was quite dark, and reminded him of his accent. Forrist said there was no accent, this man is quite American. Then I wanted to know about the white turban on his head…. there was no turban. I was so convinced of what I had seen and heard, I was amazed at how different it was from what Forrist described. I knew I had to be seeing this man with my Inner Vision more than my physical vision. I was so glad to learn that this healer was coming back again later on that evening so we would get to spend some time with him. I was amazed and a bit disappointed when I met him again… no Indian accent, no turban, no dark skin… not even all that great to spend time with. I finally decided that I must have seen him when he was coming directly from a healing session and that maybe he was channeling someone that I picked up on and that’s how he did his healing work. I don’t have any other answers to it, I just know that situations like this one have happened many times throughout my life and only now am I finally understanding what’s going on. I know that seeing with my physical eyes is something that I would like to experience, and maybe I will… this is one of the main reasons I became interested in Theta Healing and working with the DNA. Because my eye condition is hereditary, it is in my family and therefor in my DNA. So far I haven’t figured out how to heal myself. I have experienced changes in the last months; sensitivity to sunlight and my psychic vision has increased … now things seemed to have stabilized. I am in a space of openness to find the combination that will bring my vision to 20/20. Yet, I can honestly say… I I know that having low vision all my life has pushed me to see in other ways. I know that I do see in great detail what others may miss. In fact I have worked with Scripps Integrative Medicine Department to create a workshop all around teaching others to “see” energy. The Healing Touch program is prevalent there, and they were ecstatic when they discovered that I could see the energy they were teaching people how to move and balance with patients. I am making a name for myself… “The blind lady that teaches others to see.” |
